On a deeper note

October 5th -12:15am
I've been listening to music on my iPod and looking out the window as distant street lights pass. This trip has been a tough one. Not because of the cultural differences, language barrier, or difficulties I've faced but because I've not had my companion to share in those experiances and be part of an amazing journey. It's been a trip mixed with wonder, amazment, excitment, challenges, tests of patiences, and deep sadness. It was probably the exact wrong thing to do after the past five months but maybe it's making me a stronger and better person. I can say that my emotional wound is very deep and it will take a long time heal. I guess there's nothing like taking a trip to the other side of the globe and away from everything that's familure to realize how much hurt you have. On a positive note, I just listened to Black Sabath's (Ozzy Ozborn), Iron Man. It keep me from being a sobbing mess while typing this... mostly. It's a good thing pretty much everyone is asleep around me. On a completly different note, the passanger next to me has a night mask on with googly eyes, i keep looking over and giggling. Time for sleep.